During this winter break I have noticed something. I feel more empty than usual, as if there is a big black pit in my chest where my heart is suppose to be. Without school to cram most of my time into, I feel disoriented from reality, like the world around me is a simulation or a hologram of some sort. I justed believed for the first few weeks that I felt like this is because of my depression or my lack of sleep but yesterday, the girl I liked kissed me on the cheek yet…I felt nothing. I felt empty once more. I wonder at times, ‘what if the world is actually fake.’ NOW THAT IS AN IDEA!